Thank you for writing this so honestly. You're not that many years ahead of me. I do agree that each year makes us face more directly the uncertainty of the epic journey sometime in our future. At this point, I do not want to leave here, do you?
You remember much more from fourth year Latin than I do, and I'm glad you reminded me of the beauty of the words of the Aeneid.
You write beaautifully, which is one of many reasons to stick around. I hope you keep sharing your writing and your insights.